The phone rang. It was the kind connected to a wall. The wall had a clock connected to it. The clock said it was 7am. I got up and connected myself to the phone, and subsequently to 7am. It was Dave.
“What kind of disease makes your shit fluorescent green?” he asked.
It was always something. “Do you know any amateur surgeons?” “How much prison time do you get for…?” “Where’s a place that delivers drywall and windows at this hour?” “Do you remember where I left Karen last night?” “Can a penis get pink eye?” He always had a cup of crisis brewing in the morning. I have to admit that it helped my early AM outlook. A quick survey of my bomb-blasted landscape would reveal a few more houses standing than Dave’s, and I would feel a little better.
He would get up at six in the morning to start hitting the gin. I should say gin-flavored grain alcohol. That’s what generic store brand gin actually is. Read the label sometime. The ingredients list “Neutral grain spirits, gin flavoring.” It isn’t gin, but a gin-flavored treat. Either way, it’s a brutal way to start your morning.
I went to the fridge to get a beer. “I don’t know, dude, fluorescent?”
“Yeah, bright fluorescent green.”
I turned the television on, and laid down on my mattress. There was a half a can of bean dip with cigarette butts in it on the floor by my head. It smelled bad, so I used a shoe to push it further away.
“Well, whatever it is, it doesn’t sound like you’ll be around too much longer,” I tried to console, “So don’t worry about it ruining your future.”
“Yeah, there’s not too much left of it to ruin,” he said, then belched.
At the rate we were going, we weren’t going to have to endure anything for too much longer. We took a strange comfort in this. We took comfort in strange things, like each other.
Every morning Dave and I would talk while watching TV. He’d be at his apartment, and I’d be at mine. Sometimes we’d be watching the same channel, other times different ones, but our commentary was always, brilliant, poignant and insightful. We were pundits. Pundits of Reality. Pundits who drank and watched TV, while everyone else was earning a living. It was easy to feel better about ourselves while watching daytime television. Compared to the cretins showcased on Jerry Springer, Cops, and Judge Judy, we were towers of intelligence and wisdom. Twin towers.
I was a semi-employed alcoholic bouncer/laborer, who sometimes wrote things. Dave was a drunk, ex-heroin addict (and then current fugitive from Texas justice) who could play the drums. What cruel irony that even with these stellar resumes, the world hadn’t bowed before our majesty. Actually, the world had bowed for Dave once, but when Dave bowed back, he fell on the floor and couldn’t get up. He lived the rock and roll myth for a brief time, then plummeted faster than an oil-soaked Texas Mallard. He splashed into a pond of gin-flavoring and had to tread water, instead of being able to rely on his natural buoyancy.
I didn’t need success to ruin me, failure was doing just fine. I’m not sure which is worse, being a has-been or a never-was. I’d like to try being a has-been sometime. I know the other gig blows balls.
I adjusted my pillow and found a pink plastic barrette. I reached up and dropped it in the lost and found jar.
“Hey dude,” I said, “I’ve really been getting The Fear a lot more. I’m wondering if the drinking has anything to do with that.”
“See, I was afraid you’d say that! My fears are real!”
“What are you afraid of?”
“Everything,” I said, “I’m afraid of the spatula on the counter, the mailman, traffic signs, weather, phone calls, getting a disease that makes me shit fluorescent green. The only time I’m not afraid is when I’m watching a war documentary.”
“It seems to help more if it is. Anyway, do you think there’s something wrong with me?” I asked, more earnestly then I’d like to admit. I could hear Dave swallow some gin-scented crazy water.
“Nah, there’s nothing wrong with you. Everybody is like that,” he reassured, “I mean everybody is fucked up. You’re brand is just more…unique.”
I thought about it and felt slightly better. We’d do that for each other, throw out straws for the other to grasp at.
“Let’s watch Mexican TV,” I suggested. Dave and I liked to watch telenovelas with the sound off. We added our own dialogue and took the characters to places only the hopelessly depraved would dare to tread. It kept our minds sharp.
We turned to the station, but it was a game show. Mexican game shows are a phenomenon as mysterious and baffling as the stones of Ollantaytambo, Peru.
“What the hell is this all about?” Dave laughed, “Renaissance Fair escapee runs amok?”
We watched a midget, wearing an Elizabethan gown, run around with a broom. He was swatting at couples trying to dodge him. They each had a leg tied to each other with what looked like an Ace bandage. It was some sort of sack race/Pinata hybrid the producers had improvised, but they forgot to include a point to it all. He wasn’t swinging at them hard, there didn’t seem to be any penalty for being hit, and there was no finish line. Afterwards, no winner was declared or prizes awarded.
What was the purpose of all this labored chaos? It wasn’t funny, at least not the way they intended it to be. These zany antics were worth a dry cough and glance at the wristwatch. Even the clowns they had standing around to add merriment to the scene, looked like guys that were rounded up while loitering at a bus station.
“Maybe it’s a pride thing,” I offered, “the pride of knowing you got hit less often by a midget than other people.”
“Yeah, pride is a big thing in that culture,” Dave said, “And so is having some of the hottest women on Earth. Check out that carne ass-ada!”
While the midget in damsel-drag chased the conjoined couples around in a circle, and the shot-out clowns performed their vagrancy, something else was going on. Long-legged Latinas, dressed like mid-priced hookers, jumped around the sidelines, cheering, blowing whistles and party horns. We understood this. This was actually okay entertainment.
“Do you think all the bullshit with the midget and the broom is just an excuse to have some boobs bounce around?” I asked.
“I think all Mexican TV is just an excuse to have some boobs bounce around,” Dave said, “And that’s sad, because you don’t really need to have an excuse.”
“You never need an excuse to have a good time,” I pronounced, and got up for another beer. We didn’t need an excuse. That was our problem.
We had gone out together the night before and had gotten ugly drunk. At one point our group was waved off by the bouncers upon on our approach. We were thrown out of the bar ten yards before getting there. That takes skill. So does getting 86’d out of a bar you still have to work at. I have to give Dave the assist for that one.
We all wound up at Dez’s house. I remember a zoftig Brunhilde sitting on my lap, pushing her amber necklace into my face while I drank. My legs were going to sleep under her weight, but I didn’t care. Let them sleep. I figured they could use the rest. I finally had to ask her to get off so I could take a leak, but by then my legs had gone into a coma. I could not get up. I was about to piss my pants and had to beg for help. Dez and another guy carried me to the bathroom, my legs dragging uselessly behind me. When Dave saw this he howled with delight and shouted, “Medic! Medic! I need a chopper! Gustaitis has been hit by a blonde bombshell! He’s paralyzed from the neck up!” Everyone had a good laugh. My troubles always seemed to be good for that.
After drinking up all of Dez’s beers, we scavenged around for anything else. Dave found some green creme de menthe liqueur in a cabinet. I took a hit, and Dave finished it. Wait… that was it!
“I think I have the diagnosis for your alarming symptoms this morning,” I announced, ” The glowing green stool sample you produced, my friend, was caused by acute alcoholism, a condition exacerbated last night by your ingestion of half a bottle of green creme de menthe.”
We got a good laugh over this. The big har-dee-har-har was on us though, because a few years later, Dave’s guts gave out, and he died. It wasn’t a shock, but it was.
I have some survivor’s guilt, and a lot of regret. You see, when I got sober, I left Dave by the side of the road. We were bound to drift apart, but I shut the door on him. At the time it was easy to rationalize. I needed to focus on getting better, but I could’ve done that without avoiding him completely. Instead, I stopped answering the phone. I let him drown, while I went off to seek a better life.
They say you can’t help an alcoholic if he’s not ready, but somebody should be around if that time ever comes. Who better than an old drinking buddy? Besides, you never leave a man behind, and I did. I am deeply ashamed of this.
I hope you can forgive me, dude. I am really sorry. I hope I’ll get a chance to make it up you in the next life, when I’m a midget and you’re a long-legged Latina. In the meantime, I want to tell people how funny, talented, and smart you were. What a good heart you had. How hard you tried to be a good dad to your little boy, and how often you were. How you were a life raft on my stormy seas. How in spite of all the bullshit, what a great friend you were. And how I miss you, and would give anything for a call from you… at 7am.
AH HAHA!! Richness worth a second cup !!!
Powerful stuff, my friend. I’m sure that Dave can log on wherever he’s at, and if he could post a comment, he would tell you thanks for the nod…
Thanks Guy. I hope Dave can take time out from whatever celestial delight he’s chasing around his drum kit, to read it. His idea of heaven I’m sure is…unconventional.
Those who reside in memory, truly never die.
Amen, Brother Dave.